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I hang my work simply by

The last time I am again totally depend on. Within three weeks I have my two bikes stolen in the middle of winter, I do have my suspicions. For a professional bike thief steals definitely not like that an old bike that I got three weeks away. That was an old Bianchi road bike from the eighties, it was behind the house and had a flat front and back. Such a wheel I do not steal it, but that makes no sense. I'm taking a risk but not so fucked up for a bicycle, as I go but to the bosses, and getting a 2,000-euro wheel. The bike did have a wonderful Shimano 600 / Ultegra equipment, but still. I'm stuck on this wheel, so good as I've driven 35,000 km in ten years.

On Friday, my new road bike was gone, which had been locked in the house. There they are also always other bikes, but have probably never been anyone interested. Now I guess I just have to make again no way cycling. And I can open up to me, especially as Hartz IV recipients in any way another road bike. Do not exist below 300 € and this is a small fortune for me.

Before I can buy a bicycle, I have to pay another 100 € insurance for my motorcycle, my phone bill is overdue and 60 € for a week and it's not even mid-month. Life as Hartz IV recipients is simply beautiful, and in any case, I have much free time and no money so what to do. In any case, you learn for life, for sure. What can you tell me everything from consumer goods, I am so unaccustomed to this is me so no matter. Vacation? Did I make during my work at Telekom can not. So, if you will live a life must be shit, then it craps on work because with work I have no more money, because the future of the labor market will be, except that all managers, freelancers are vegetating on the subsistence level, even if they work full time.

me get her any more, I'm sick Sun so full, I've lost my family, I have worked for seven years and keep depression shit like this, I sit alone at home and look stupid. Or I write such a shit, like now, good for nothing, entirely misses everyone. I can not print the Posting and either wipe my butt or nail me the paper under the desk, which both have the same zero effect. I see clearly and exactly the German reality and for me is cruel and dead, because I'm difficult to clear. This lack of interest in anything other than fast to get to coal, even if it's blood money. Who can cheat the other better and faster, the successful. Throw your morals overboard and you will survive, all the rest leads to spiritual destruction.

How can I get out of it? Not with an average boring job, for my life outside of any work is so laaaangweilig because I need the work already in the balance. I could perhaps rumrutschen on his knees and beg that I may return again to the family. But I can not do, because I am a lion, is not begging, but the screams and calls. There is no other and it will probably no longer be found today, the subordinated to shout at and found wanting. I will stay alone, anschweigen my four walls, look rubbish on television, rubbish post, read nonsense and are slowly getting boring, always hunched over, always resigned. There are of course no one can understand that, if one is in there in the reality that you will not come with tons of any drugs as more can get out.

Wet Dreams In Grown Men

consultant

This man has made a decision a year ago, namely that it is better for me to do no training. This justified he fact that he is not sure, because I was in far resilient. I was ahead of the psychological service employment agency, where I had the absolute ability to complete a course successfully, clearly confirmed. In addition, the psychologist saw my motivation, what they put in this report.

But my job consultants took advantage of his position, he now has the final say in such matters, even if a real expert, like a psychologist, says the opposite. Now I ask myself why is the decision of my work was negative consultant? Was it because I was away when this decision only two months of Hartz IV? I therefore a some saving measure or a certain savings excessive zeal of a newly-German labor consultant (who is clear from the former East Germany and thus knows not what work is particularly stressful. I do not take it amiss, that was just the crappy lack of economy of the GDR, where no material because you can not work, or clear?).

Or did he just show me only that he may say no and do? No idea, I have learned that decision in any case, nothing. I told my consultant work, that I I no longer work in the commercial sector and I got through to one hundred percent and I also draw on through, despite all the consequences this has for me. In any case, no one can fall in Germany under the rule set of Hartz IV, if he wants to work for this regime or not. And I've always seen it when I was still working good, and taxes paid. There are people who need my financial help, so I gladly pay my taxes. I also like the whole finance Eierschaukler in the authorities if they help me because then again, I should get into this situation. So it does not happen, you have rather the feeling that you should have a guilty conscience that respect, the consortium staff can not believe I have it now sometimes pay for another twenty years and for that I now want the best care by the consortium , for me that is just normal and I do not feel as a supplicant. Rather, I see the staff in the consortium as my service provider must support me, then and only then he can not also demand, vice versa.

The consortiums and living for the people, not by the citizens of the consortium, which must go to penetrate the consciousness of the people, then they can treat us with the necessary respect and kowtow. If I do not that is willing, then I do not, to paraphrase this platitude with the "police men" on Kabel1. Was "state nice to me, I'm nice to you and help you but if you want to immerse myself, then there is discussion of all democratic Resources and are already many. I guess I'm not condescend to autonomous force, or apply the resources of our politicians. Since there are public and easily finished the story.

The Sims 2 Where Can I Find A Pram

frustration

Yes, the usual, you sit at home alone and the ceiling falling down. I have no idea what I should write, but I can not just sit there and brood. Slowly I would get more and more convinced that I no longer participate in this idiotic game. I'm trying now for over ten years to convince the Labour Office, the Employment Agency and the consortium believe that I have the wrong profession. Me that this job was put over, because I as an ex-junkie in the eyes of the counselor at an employment office also should make the training which I like. A bit of punishment must be even and if the good woman was not motivated in their work frustrated and totally, I believe that this should happen less. Not that there is such an ex-junkie in the end still can have joy in life, that would be expecting a lot.

you have made me a commercial wizard, I as an anarchist in an absolute professional capitalists that can not fit. And it did not fit after a few more years at Telekom. I am suffering from depression since 2005, triggered by the work. I was then 2006 and 2007, six weeks of inpatient treatment because of depression. This of course has not helped, because I need another job, else can not work it.

But who is looking for already in himself of this dead, hollow man? The institutions prefer to take into account that I never again make an active contribution to the community than to admit a mistake could. Thus verheitzt here in this wonderful free republic the people are free, under the maxim of "Social participation".

I must say that I for the society as it is now, will not make a crooked finger. I do not want to pay for the diets of the politicians and I will not pay even that our glorious Military power in Afghanistan holds the position for nothing. I will not vote for this game on kindergarten level.

Why do I continually stressed to get a job? We have too much unemployment and too few vacancies. On the other hand, vacancies are often not filled because the classification is not there. This is blatantly the case in the computer, because Germany is slow and the development of racing past them. Still looking for companies in that industry desperately for employees in foreign countries. And this is like a slap for me because I'm sitting in 1996 in the employment office and wanted a re-training in the IT field because I was already long been clear that our institutions will never be clear. I want to go up in my work and not do anything, so I can earn money. That's the problem with the consortiums and employment agencies, sit there Eierschaukler who want to be financially secure and want to have their rest. When it comes to advising people in an area that makes up most of his life, then you should sit in these places have motivated employees and no Eierschaukler.

But no matter makes your boots on so I can not expect people to find that not even her butt with both hands.

Old Silver Nurse Belt

The bottom is crossed

Since January, that with the new year, I feel much more better. I have finally started to read. And now and again I write a few lines. When I read through the last posts, it's a never-ending coming and going, simply because there is no line, no common thread in there. Since I can pretty well recognize the constant rotation of my thoughts and feelings. I hope that I can now bring back more quality. Sometimes I have thought about me, I'll just write times belletristic. But I am from my heart to even critical, in terms of my creativity. I have always, in every way, put my light under a bushel.

But in my increasing satisfaction, I must say that I'm getting myself can accept the way I now even in principle am. And I realize the more I get used to my self, the more balanced I would, without that I have changed my nature at all. I'm still a potentially explosive type, I can get upset about little things remain just as in the old year. But now receding from this phase after five minutes, I can also remember phases in which I have been so long agitated that I was away from a nervous breakdown, only a few moments.

My last depression I had in mid-November, she held the fortnight. A permanent state of absolute discontent, and vulnerability and loneliness. Until Christmas I was more bad than good and kept upright after all the ceremonies I am again fallen into a very dull phase. But now it's different, I am no longer dull, the sun is shining, the winter is definitely gone for a few days, spring has sent his forerunners. It drives me to be out there, last Thursday I made my first little bike, easy to get in again.

All this activity, I got quite a lot since mid-February, is unlikely based. On Wednesday evening I had for two minutes, a very bad phase, I began sitting on the bed and fell quickly into total self-pity, crying about my so humble position without a wife and child. I I just phoned my son and just as fast as I had fallen into this negative state of mind, as soon I felt good again. I am absolutely motivated for the upcoming year and the challenges that will come to me or who I will face. I'm fine, I was in the last two years is not often said of me. I have drunk too much alcohol and thus still introduce additional high pushed my Agressionspotential. This phase is now, fortunately, since summer is over, I drink a beer in the week, when I am invited to dinner, otherwise I'm satisfied with my abstinence.

The signs are finally good again, I can probably slow more favorable prognosis for the near future make. It is also time to get out of this continuous negative suction.